Can I trust the Universe?

Trust. 

Trust is a big word. Especially coming from the Universe herself.

And I do not know if I have the trust in me to finish this blog post.
Just kidding, being a little dramatic, over here. Just for the sake of the narrative! 

But, really, trust is a big word. Even though it only has five letters.
How many times have I struggled with trust? Oh so many...Not only trusting in the divine process, but trusting others as well. That's why I say trust is a big word. It has so many things attached to it, that it becomes a heavy burden.

Even though trusting the Universe, apparently, is the ultimate answer to everything. 

(So, okay, let me try to make some sense out of everything I'm saying here. Not sure if its apparent to you, but my mind is racing in every direction possible. And that kinda is why I'm forcing myself to write something. So that my mind calms down a little bit, instead of being a total cokehead. That it isn't.)

As I've told you before. I went through a lot of shit in 2021, I've learnt a lot, I had to make myself grow up, grow some balls and become an adult of some sort. During that process I came across a lot of videos on YouTube, Instagram posts, when I still had it, and some other 1 on 1 experiences that mentioned this "trusting in the Universe" thing. 

So, trying to make it simple for you here. Imagine that you want a lollipop but you have no money on your pocket or wallet. The thing they tell you is: if you want to manifest that lollipop, you have to set your intention, send it to the Universe, forget about it, and trust that the Universe will give you that very same lollipop you wanted. Being the biggest thing, here: trusting that the Universe will give you that damn lollipop. 

I'm pretty sure you've already read somewhere on the internet "What is meant for you can't miss you". That's basically trusting the Universe... (This is the TL;DR bit)

The thing with this "trusting the Universe" thing, is that this is flawed. In the sense that we are sentient beings, with a full set of emotional baggage that we can't seem to get rid of and that takes a lot of space — either in our minds, in our hearts, our homes, our relationships, our work. 

Wherever we go, whatever we start... We carry that baggage with us. And this baggage shapes the way we see and perceive things. It can help us — by igniting the anxiety or fear in us, which can save us, sometimes. But it can also forbid us from flowing, or doing what we really love.
We have trust issues because of our past experiences. Plain and simple. If it weren't for the things we lived before, we wouldn't have any trust issues, because our reality wouldn't have had been shaped by anyone else before... We are fearful of being left in the cold because we've had that experience before and it wasn't pleasant. We are fearful of our friends betraying us because we've had that experience before. We are fearful that our new job will make us work extra unpaid hours because the last one did... You get the gist! You are smart, I know!

So, to be honest. I was thinking where I wanted to go with this rambling. And my wish was that I had found the miraculous way of how to master balance in life. I didn't. And I'm not sure if I ever will... But I'm trying. Pinky promise!
Though, one thing that I actually found out was: trusting that good things can happen to you shouldn't be harmful. Some may say that I'm a dreamer (sorry for quoting John Lennon here. Really, really sorry, It wasn't intentional) and that I live in a world of my own — I mindlessly wrote on my own, and this is accurate too — which can be harmful because I dare to be caught up in my own dreams. But... here's the thing. If we were given the chance to dream big, really big, why not do it? It is, so much fun when you get to live your big, bold, wild, crazy dreams! Despite having everyone else around you doubting if you were ever able to live them, after all!
It's like... You dreamt of that lollipop. You conspired with the Universe to get it. It shows up right in front of you. Your mouth watering. Your eyes filling up with tears of joy. Your heart bursting with happiness. And all of a sudden, some random motherfucker comes up to you and slaps that lollipop off your hand, straight to the ground And then shouts in your face: DON'T DREAM! And goes away. 

Remember, you live your own live. No one else's. So, dare to dream big and dare to trust the Universe! With every fibre of your being! It will make everything else feel so much lighter and easer.
And if your dreams come crashing down? Oh, well, too bad! Been there, done that! It takes time and effort to clean that shit up. Especially with all the tears covering your eyes, and making you all snotty... But it is worth it. You had to mop the floor anyways! 

Now, I believe you need a sign from the Universe after reading this. Go and do it already universeareyouthere.com!